Trying to escape this rut...

I've been feeling pretty shitty about my appearance since I had my surgery. I've been in so much pain and so focussed on getting better that the way I look has just been a non-issue. I spend most days in leggings or shorts and t-shirts. I usually put on makeup in the morning, but I rarely end up reapplying or touching it up during the day. I know that I'm doing the right thing by putting my health first, but I just feel like I've let myself go recently.

I've been dealing with quite a bit of depression because of this, along with several other things, including the fact that my meds aren't keeping me as stable as they once were. I'm tired of dwelling on it, so I got up this morning and fucking did something about it.

Pink wig decorated, did my eyebrows, put on fake lashes, lip gloss and one of my lolita dresses that I usually reserve for Rainbow Hime. I feel more like me today than I have been lately. My mom is taking me out to dinner tonight, so I'll be wearing this for that. I also plan on taking Lacebun to Yamato Steakhouse, where we went on our first real date, when she gets back. :3 What will I wear for that? It's a surprise! 

...Because I don't even know yet! XD

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A thing...

Or how about two?

I guess three could do...

Oh, fine... A tree in watercolor, just for you!

Poetry is NOT in my future... At least anything that rhymes! XD

Piece titles:

Goofy Crow

Random Sketches

Basic Outline (Male)

Tree Watercolor

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Kawaii ne!!!!

So I was telling darling that I'd heard little kitten meows most of last night. I don't see many cats roaming around outside, so I was worried that someone had abandoned them in the woods near our house or something. I left big bowls of food and water on the deck last night before I went to bed just incase they were nearby and hungry.

When I woke up this morning, this little cutie was on the deck having breakfast! :3 I didn't want her to run away, so I approached her cautiously (as a gimp on a cane possibly can) but she didn't flinch. I gave her my hand and let her check me out and as she was doing so, two more came out! They both look like her but they were a bit more shy.

Being that Ophelia is some sort of feral/housecat hybrid, I couldn't risk her or Juliet (who was at the door observing with her tail in the air and her cattitude in full effect) attacking the babies. I left them for a minute and found a box, then came back and brought them into the bedroom where they were until my mom came. 

We brought them to a shelter where they're being checked out and vaccinated and all that stuff. I really hope they're okay! I have no idea where they came from or how long they were out there, I'm just glad I found them. And I might've adopted the first baby I found... >.> 

Speaking of cute creatures, Lacebun is well today! :3 Her uncle is semi-conscious and it's looking good for him to make a full recovery. She's going to see him this afternoon and she'll be doing a blog post of her own sometime today. She thinks she'll be home on Monday, provided her uncle doesn't suffer any setbacks. She's overjoyed that I found the kittens and that we've got another addition to the petting zoo coming soon.

Right. Time to put on my workout stuff and wait for my helper lady to show up... -__-

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Maiko of Blood makeup

I don't know a third of what Lacebun does about makeup. Most days I put a little on my face and do my eye makeup, that's it. (Hiding scars notwithstanding) Unless I'm doing one of my characters or going somewhere special, I guess I'm just lazy like that. I can be a very visual person, I just prefer to do it through crazy outfits or wigs moreso than makeup.

That said, when I do put on a lot of makeup, I tend to take it over-the-top, as you can see here. All those pictures really consist of is white costume makeup (some people call it corpse paint), a little mascara and a dab of lipstick. 

I did this post just because I'm thinking of Lace and also to pile onto Darlingbun's list of potential looks to try. ^^ :3 (Maiko = Geisha in training, by the way)

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Lacebun Update 1

So she had chance to get to the hospital and see him for a brief period. Turns out that he was working underneath an old truck he'd recently gotten and something came loose and crashed onto his head. Luckily, he had a friend with him as he lives on quite a large chunk of land in the middle of nowhere. He wouldn't come to and they had to med-flight him. His brain is swollen and he's essentially in a medically induced coma right now. They're expecting him to pull through, but they don't know the extent of the damage just yet.

Lace sounded much calmer having seen him and hearing what she did. She managed to find a toy bunny in the gift shop and left that and a few other things, along with a card in his room. He'll know who it's from should she not be present when he wakes up. :3

Her parents were taking her out for dinner and she just wants to relax tonight. I'll be talking to her before she goes to bed, so if there's anything else to report, I'll update again.

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Emergency Departure

I just wanted to post real quick and let you know that Lacebun is on her way to Michigan as I type this. She got a call from her mom this afternoon letting her know that her uncle John had suffered a head injury while working on his property this morning and has been hospitalized and is presently unconscious. She didn't have a lot of details, but she was very upset and had to go immediately.

Janice took her to the airport with just the things she brought to work with her this morning and got her on the first flight out. Her uncle is such an amazing, nice guy and he's been there for everything in her life. I talked to her until she was about to board and she's stressed, but she'll be okay. Her parents will be at the airport when she gets there and she has more than enough stuff there in terms of clothing, entertainment, etc.

She doesn't know how long she'll be there, but I told her to stay as long as she needs to. I'll be fine, my mom will be looking in on me once a day and Janice said to let her know if I need anything, also.

I feel so bad for her. It's like she's been through one medical mess after another between my shit, her appendix and now this. I also feel horrible that I couldn't be there to comfort her while she was so upset... *Sigh* She said that she didn't want me to cause myself any pain or anything by going out, but I would've happily done it. Should this drag on or show signs of going any further downhill, I will be on the first plane out.

I love you, sweetheart. Please take care and call me any time, day or night. I'll post updates as info becomes available. Don't worry about blogging or anything, baby doll. You use that big heart and warm soul of yours to help get him healthy. :3

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Something I don't understand...

Blowjob porn. First, I'm just gonna say it. I've never enjoyed performing oral on a man. Not once. That he's getting pleasure from me is the only "good" thing I've ever taken from it... Which begs the question, what fucking pleasure is there for you in watching girls suck someone else's cock? Every other porn video is "Young Teen Slut Sucks Big Cock" 

Do you picture it being yours? Are you flounder pounding to the thought of getting your dick sucked by the girl or on some horny power trip saying "Mine's bigger, I'd give it to her better!" Because that's all I can come up with after what I just watched... I saw some clip of a Japanese woman in some type of maid uniform and it was just a blowjob video. The chick didn't take her clothes off or anything, she just sucked this dude's 3 inch samurai twig for 5 minutes. I couldn't for the life of me fathom how anyone could get off on that.

Obviously, it was just a clip of a full scene, but who wants that part? (Of the scene OR the man) I've just never understood the fascination with filming a man getting oral. At least women suck (hahaha) you into it. They're moaning and writhing, there's a sensory overload going on. What do dudes do? Half-hearted "Oh. Oh god..." *Eyeroll*

And I'm not against oral or performing it on who you're with, I just don't see why it needs to be filmed or how it can be enjoyed by men who aren't actually getting it. 

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