Monday, February 23, 2015

Hidden sounds of pain: ISOLA - OVER... (Lyrics and song)

Music: tsubaki Lyrics: Hime (Kaya)

I don't have the [power to believe] in anything anymore
The blue sky was too high, my despair so brilliant
Mixed with the depressing scenery, with my slashed left arm
It was all so beautiful, and just a little I cried.

My song no one will hear, my thoughts fallen to decay
It was all so sorrowful, and just a little, I myself derided.


However many lies you told still echo even now
As if they would tear me apart
To think I've become this weak, this worthless
Reaching out in despair I......


If I dig a bit deeper into my arm,
and let the blood flow a bit more
Just a little, I expect I can find
the medicine I've been looking for


As my body begins to fall apart
Pain brings me to a state of dreams
And the setting sun from far away
Will someday be stained with dirt

Yet my song just melted into the blue sky
As I looked like I would crumble then
All that remained was the stale lines
of your broken vow



I don't think I have to go into detail about just how strongly this resonates with me. This has been a song of refuge and relation for many years. Hime/Kaya obviously (at one point, at least) has some problems with self-harm and mental illness. His garage band days (Meties/ISOLA) were wrought with this kind of material. Even into Schwarz Stein, his lyrics were incredibly dark. Put some headphones on and listen closely. You'll hear the pain in his voice and faint sniffling during the pauses between lines.






3 comments:

  1. Honey, I just wanna say how much I appreciate you doing things like this. Your knowledge of these little bands is astounding and I'm sure people appreciate you for it. What I appreciate more is that I get to learn about your experiences with something I have so little knowledge of- your mental illness. It helps when you have something relateable like music, I think. I just wanna be there for you and be able to help when you need it most. And now I think I'm gonna go spill the beans. XOXO forever. <3

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  2. I'd like to second Lacey's appreciation of you sharing musical gems with us. And also I adore the description of my friend-making hat, lol. You are so awesome. ❤️

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  3. Thank you both! :3 A hat that makes you friends is a lucky hat in my book. :p I'm still waiting for my pot of gold. He left me a shitty bag of weed and VD... Don't trust leprechauns. *Scratches*

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