For years I've been trying to get someone to do something about my back problem. MRI's, Injections, Pain meds, physical therapy, nothing worked. Nobody would listen to me or even consider just getting to the route of the problem and doing surgery. Until today.
Lace found me a great doctor who saw how much pain I was in, that I could barely walk or stand and he treated me like a human being. From the moment I walked into that office, I was treated beyond what my insurance policy was. They saw Lace holding me up (which must've looked ridiculous XD) and helping me in and someone got me a wheelchair.
The doctor was in a state of awe and utter shock when I told him how long I'd been walking around like this. Not only in my current state but just with the injury alone. I brought everything Lace and I could get, records, MRIs, etc. He looked at all of them then felt around my back where he noticed the swelling I mentioned last night. Every poke and prod hurt and he apologized each time, then he had to make me do some range of motion tests, which fucking HURT. I have practically no ability to move or bend in any direction.
He was adamant that I needed surgery and he had to explain everything they do and the risks involved, but I agreed to it the second he said "surgery." He offered me steroid injections to hold me over until they could get me in for the procedure (he told the girl in the office to put a rush on it) and even knowing how much they hurt, I took them. They were even more painful this time, but they were necessary and have helped some. I was prescribed Methadone for the pain, Motrin to help with the swelling and Prednasone, which I fucking hate but am being forced to take by Usagi-chan.
In addition, I'm having a visiting nurse come to the house twice a day starting tomorrow to check on my swelling issue, make sure the meds are working and to help me get up and move a bit so I don't get too stiff or anything. The surgery is Monday and yes, I'm very nervous about what is to come. But I'm also ready to put this back issue behind me and do whatever it takes to get better. I will be online in limited spurts, but Lace will be around to update the person who cares. She has been taking very good care of me today, hence her absence from zeh interwebz today.
In all of this, my biggest worry is how to break this to Timothy. I know he's going to want to do this and that and I'm not gonna be able to. He's very good about my physical limitations, but he is still a little boy and doesn't fully understand. I refuse to break his heart and say he can't come. That isn't happening as long as I can still breathe. I'll figure something out.
Ganbaremasu!
Rei~
Lace found me a great doctor who saw how much pain I was in, that I could barely walk or stand and he treated me like a human being. From the moment I walked into that office, I was treated beyond what my insurance policy was. They saw Lace holding me up (which must've looked ridiculous XD) and helping me in and someone got me a wheelchair.
The doctor was in a state of awe and utter shock when I told him how long I'd been walking around like this. Not only in my current state but just with the injury alone. I brought everything Lace and I could get, records, MRIs, etc. He looked at all of them then felt around my back where he noticed the swelling I mentioned last night. Every poke and prod hurt and he apologized each time, then he had to make me do some range of motion tests, which fucking HURT. I have practically no ability to move or bend in any direction.
He was adamant that I needed surgery and he had to explain everything they do and the risks involved, but I agreed to it the second he said "surgery." He offered me steroid injections to hold me over until they could get me in for the procedure (he told the girl in the office to put a rush on it) and even knowing how much they hurt, I took them. They were even more painful this time, but they were necessary and have helped some. I was prescribed Methadone for the pain, Motrin to help with the swelling and Prednasone, which I fucking hate but am being forced to take by Usagi-chan.
In addition, I'm having a visiting nurse come to the house twice a day starting tomorrow to check on my swelling issue, make sure the meds are working and to help me get up and move a bit so I don't get too stiff or anything. The surgery is Monday and yes, I'm very nervous about what is to come. But I'm also ready to put this back issue behind me and do whatever it takes to get better. I will be online in limited spurts, but Lace will be around to update the person who cares. She has been taking very good care of me today, hence her absence from zeh interwebz today.
In all of this, my biggest worry is how to break this to Timothy. I know he's going to want to do this and that and I'm not gonna be able to. He's very good about my physical limitations, but he is still a little boy and doesn't fully understand. I refuse to break his heart and say he can't come. That isn't happening as long as I can still breathe. I'll figure something out.
Ganbaremasu!
Rei~
I love you, darling, and in spite of the frightening aspect of surgery, I am BEYOND HAPPY that someone is finally going to fucking do something about this godawful misery you've been enduring for so long. I'm sure Laceybug will keep me updated on your progress, and I will be waiting to hear as soon as you're out of surgery and recovering. I can't imagine the pain you're in, and you are the strongest person I know. *hugs* I'm so proud to be your friend. I will be thinking of you constantly, and available as much as I possibly can on text. Love you dearly. I hope your pain isn't quite as horrible with the steroids and painkillers. Please take care of your precious self. I couldn't stand to have you hurt any further. <3 Love you love you love you. *hugs gently*
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry that its taken me so long to reply to this, darling. I've read it several times and would be remiss if I said I wasn't touched by your words. :3 Thank you so much! I am so fucking terrified by this, as you may have read on Lacey's blog by now. But I know it has to be done and I refuse to back out. The pain was horrible yesterday, even with everything. Before I saw that doctor, I was eating through an insane amount of pills just to function, there wasn't even any type of high or anything to accompany it. What I have now barely took the edge off, so it is definitely time. The road ahead is long, but I'm glad I have people to walk on it with. *Hugs tight* :3
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